you only wish you knew, but then again so do i

i have a newer better blog with some interesting crap on there...

finding yourself along the way...

oh wow! what a weekend! eric and i went down to college station on thurs night. we partied and partied and partied. we drove to cold springs like north of houston on saturday. ate some bbq at his grandmother's resturant. then drove back to party even more on sat night. it was the greatest, including everyone's drama on friday.

thanks to everyone for such a bad ass weekend. now just class till wed. then turkey day. then one week of reviews, then finals and it as all over. it is hard to believe that this semester is already over. i have truly turned alot at home this semester. as bad as it sucked at first, it turned out to be not so bad. so after christmas at home i am heading back to a&m to try it all over again. but this time i am much, much more mature. i am ready to get back, work hard, and have fun (in between my school work). but thanks to everyone who listened to me bitch and moan all fall. and thanks to those who always believed in me, i won't let you down.

i will catch you on the flip side...


Been driving all night
Truck lights and pouring rain
Heart full of sad facts
My lips still feel the pain

But I guess that's how
This story's gonna go
Seems like we get this far
Lost with no way to know

This city looks lonely and dead
Feels like I'm looking in a mirror
Of a deserted rest stop somewhere
State line and millons miles to go

Back in the pickup
Fuel topped and ready to go
Point the wheel somewhere northeast
And spit my dreams out the window

love is the reason we stop trying at everything. love fucks it all up.

i almost don't remember what a kiss feels like anymore...



Woke up this morning with the sun in my eyes,
Woke up right next to you, what a nice surprise.
Didn't seem like I would ever get this wish,
You make it even better when you give me a kiss.

Now I don't know where this road is gonna take us,
How far we'll go or what life is gonna make us.
What I do know though is that when I'm with you,
It's the only time that this love feels true.

Woke up this morning, foggy in my head,
Cold and dark outside and alone in my bed.
Been wishin for a while that I'd see you again,
Missing you so much, my own best friend.

Now I don't know where this road is gonna take us,
How far we'll go or what life is gonna make us.
What I do know though is that when I'm with you,
It's the only time that this love feels true.

well...it is hard to believe that this semester is almost over. it has gone by really quick. my "fall of discontent" turned out to be not so bad. a big reason was that eric came home. without him here this fall i am not sure what i would have done. i am really lucky to have a bestfriend like him. he has always been there, no matter what. he is always willing to just listen, or when he knows i don't want to talk about to just say nothing. i am really going to miss him when i go back to a&m, but hopefully he will be coming down to visit and everything.

but on that note, he just got over here, we are going to head up to guitar center and goof around for awhile. but eric and i are going to cs next weekend, some fun times will indeed be had ;)

catch you on the flip side...

this is a quick quiz that was suprisingly acurate about my personality...it did give very general anwers, but still...just take it takes like 1 minute

color quiz

this one is not about anyone, so please don't be offended...it is just about those kind of people, you will know what i am talking about


You're so transfixed
On all my imperfections
You really just can't see
Yourself from this dimension

You think that they all want you
You really think they care
You think that they all like you
Your humility is where?

You talk of it all so much
I swear you're in love with yourself
You think this is a game
And you are against no one else

Might as well leave this mess
Alone to dry and blow away
But frustration gives me emotion
To write about you this way

You talk of it all so much
I swear you're in love with yourself
I can't wait to see when you have no one else

sometimes things just don't work out...


but besides that, i am going back down to cs next weekend. i have to meet with an advisor to get unblocked so i can register, so i figured while i am down there i might as well party for the weekend.

so write it all down on a tear stained letter
and scream a little bit to make it feel better
what's the point of life if you don't express emotion
ride the seas of change and dream thru the commotion

envision your circumstance and create the sensation
finalize your thoughts and vocalize the frustration
what difference does it make if your words aren’t read?
the energy released will relieve you instead.


that is far as i got on that one...i just didn't go anywhere from there.
i have been putting alot more time into writing, so here is one more for anyone, if anyone reads this...

Writing this down on an envelope
The trains keep rolling by
Union-Pacific shakes the ground
And time keeps passing by

Blame it on our indiscretion
Blame it on our sins
I'd like to think we lost it to
The Santa Ana winds

Lost out in the desert night
Star's beacon leads me on
The smoke and dust from the love we lost
I breathe in deep and carry on